11 failed IUIs, IVF #1- miscarriage, FET #1-nada, IVF #2-triplets but we lost them all at 9, 18, and 21 weeks in 2013. When all hope was lost a friend stepped forward to be our gestational carrier and carried in our twins... 2 years later we decided to try for one more baby with me carrying again...this is our story
Prayers to you on this very hard journey you and your husband are traveling!
ReplyDeleteSaying prayers for you and your husband. This picture says so much.
ReplyDeletePrayers of peace and comfort. Your babies are so very loved.
ReplyDeleteLove and prayers to you and Darren, friend.
ReplyDeleteThey say you have to say hello before you can say good bye. Holding your precious son for those all too brief moments will be beautifully etched into your heart forever. I continue to pray for you, your husband, Brinly, Jude and your little lost triplet.
ReplyDeleteXoxoxoxo
ReplyDeleteYou are in my thoughts and prayers. Wishing you peace and comfort and hope in this time. Hugs!
ReplyDeleteI am wordless as well. Hugs and prayers your way.
ReplyDeleteI am so, so very and intensely sorry. Please know our thoughts are with you during this horrible time.
ReplyDeleteOur hearts runneth over for you...xoxo
ReplyDeleteCharisse
I haven't stopped praying for you guys. My heart is breaking. I have no words...
ReplyDeleteHugs. Take it one day at a time. I know the holidays will be hard but lean of family .
ReplyDeletePraying Holly
ReplyDeleteThis picture says 1000 words.
ReplyDeleteGoodbye sweet Jude.
I've been following your blog for the last month or so...I know there are no words, but wanted to share a song with you that resonated with my husband and I after the stillbirth of our son. I want you to know you are not alone. Cry out, scream out, beat the walls if you need to because He does hear you...even in your loneliest, angriest, most heart wrenching of moments...He's there. Its been almost a year since we lost our son and 3 months since our second miscarriage and I continue to wrestle with God...I get angry and sad and everything inbetween and sometimes there are no words and I play this song. Prayers lifted for your precious family!
ReplyDeletehttp://m.youtube.com/watch?v=9tivseVZbnY
Lyrics to Need You Now (How Many Times) :
Well, everybody's got a story to tell
And everybody's got a wound to be healed
I want to believe there's beauty here
So, I guess you're tired of holding on
I can't let go, I can't move on
I want to believe there's meaning here
Chorus:
How many times have you heard me cry out
"God please take this"?
How many times have you given me strength to
Just keep breathing?
Oh I need you
God, I need you now.
Standing on a road I didn't plan
Wondering how I got to where I am
I'm trying to hear that still small voice
I'm trying to hear above the noise
Chorus
Though I walk, though I walk through the shadows
And I, I am so afraid
Please stay, please stay right beside me
With every single step I take
How many times have you heard me cry out?
And how many times have you given me strength?
Chorus
I need you now
I need you now
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Holly, I have no words. I'm sorry. I'm crying my eyes out for you, I can barely see the computer screen. I haven't checked up on you in so long and this is what I just found. My heart is literally out of my chest for you, crushed to pieces. I wish I could take your pain away. I wish I could give you your hearts desires Holly, you deserve them so much. Take all the time you need Holly. I wish I could be there to hug you sweet girl. I'm so so very sorry!! I'm praying for you!! xoxoxo Amy
ReplyDeleteYou're going to wake up tomorrow and wonder if this was all a bad dream. You're going to wonder that for many mornings to come. When that pain and grief creep in, cry out to Jesus. He wants us to do that Holly. Cry out to Him...He is the only one that can heal this immense pain for you. You will be in my EVERY thought. I want to take this all away for you!!
ReplyDeleteMy heart is broken for you and your family. I'm praying that somehow you will find peace. I'm crying out to the Lord for you and your sweet babies. Saying you have my sympathies simply isn't adequate. I'm so incredibly sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteSo, very very sorry. There is so much pain and love in this photo. No mother should have to go through what you have. Wishing you love and comfort in peace in these difficult days.
ReplyDeleteSending love to you, from Portland.
ReplyDeleteStanding silently with you in your grief. <3
ReplyDeleteHolly I am so sorry. Know that I have been praying for you guys and will continue to do so. I pray for peace and comfort and healing. Know that you are loved beyond words by so many who have never had the privilege to meet you yet. We haven't seen each other face to face for a few years my friend but please know that I love you.
ReplyDeleteStill praying.
ReplyDelete<3 and prayers
ReplyDeleteMy heart breaks for you and your husband. Thinking of you both during this unimaginable loss.
ReplyDeleteThere are no words needed when I look at this photo. The love and grief in this photo says it all. I have had you in my thoughts and prayers daily. xoxo
ReplyDeleteHolly, I know we don't know each other. I stumbled across your blog and I have been following you since your gender reveal. I just wanted to say whether you feel it or not, you are not alone. All of us "followers" are thinking of and praying for your family constantly. Following your journey I think makes us all treasure life, our own children, and families more. I truly believe you will have a child and he/she will be a world changer! Praying healing for you both now and that you treasure the moments you had with Jude and Brinly.
ReplyDeletePraying for peace and strength for you.
ReplyDeleteIsaiah 41:10 - Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
“There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are messengers of overwhelming grief...and unspeakable love.”
ReplyDeleteSending prayers. Thank you for sharing this moment with us... it is so powerful. Families can be together forever.
ReplyDeleteWe are praying for you and your husband. I am so sorry sweet girl.
ReplyDeleteStill praying for you, Holly. And will continue to do so. As absolutely heartbreaking as this picture is, I am so glad that it exists. One day you will be so glad that you have it. I'm so, so, sorry that you are having to endure this. So, so sorry. Though he was not here for long, baby Jude has left an indelible mark on countless hearts - as have all of your babies. They will not be forgotten!
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for your losses! Praying for you and your husband...and the family and friends you have standing by and supporting you!
ReplyDeleteThere are no words...I am so sorry. Jesus will pray words for us when we have nothing left to give.
ReplyDeleteSending hugs and love from McMinnville, from one mother to another. I am so, so, so sorry. I thought of you and hoped for you every day, even though I don't know you.
ReplyDelete{HUGS}
ReplyDeletePraying for peace and comfort.
ReplyDeletePraying for you and your husband, no words just prayers for acceptance and peace for you.
ReplyDeleteLove, peace, and prayers.
ReplyDeleteThere are no words i sat and cried as i read your post. My heart breaks for you know you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers!
ReplyDeleteMy heart literally jumped out of my chest and fell to the floor when I read what happened. It was already breaking for you with your previous losses, but just feel with Jude it was the last straw. I am praying for peace for you and your husband. I am sending so much love to you to help you get through this dark time. Sorry does not even begin to explain how I feel for you and your loved ones. I am going to repeat a verse I read on your blog in response to what was happening to poor Brinly "The Lord is close to the broken hearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit"... You are such a strong and amazing mother. Hugs to you.
ReplyDeleteI'm sending light and love to you. I'm beyond sorry you've had to endure this. My heart breaks for you.
ReplyDeleteI've been following your story for a while but haven't commented until now, but I've said many prayers for you and cried many tears for you. I wish I could find the right words to say, but I just wanted to say that I think about you often and pray for you to have strength the keep getting up every day.
ReplyDeleteStill praying.
ReplyDeleteI've just recently started reading your blog. I have no words for you. I am praying for you, your husband, your families and your beautiful angels.
ReplyDeleteThis picture just makes me sob. I think about you guys a lot. Still here praying for you guys.
ReplyDeleteThere are no words. Thinking of you and praying for peace and healing over you both.
ReplyDeleteSending love and prayers. May God bring you comfort.
ReplyDeleteThis picture makes my heart ache for you both so much. I hope you find peace soon.
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